I'M NOT AT HOME

Psalm 139               
          Sunday, July 22, 2012

I’m not home in this world
Where no one understands.
I’m unknown and unknowable
In these strange, foreign lands.

I’m alone in this world

Where no one seems to care
I’m unpursued and unsought
In these lands of despair.

I’m small at heart in this world

Where no one seems to see.
I’m unimpressive and uninspiring
In these lands I can’t be free.

I’m falling apart in this world

Where no one has it right.
I’m unhinged and unstable
In these lands devoid of light.

This world is not my home

Where people can’t comprehend.
I’m known and loved.
In Your arms I can mend.

This world is not my home

Where people live so selfishly.
I’m pursued and cherished.
In Your eyes I’m loved attentively.

This world is not my home

Where people cannot feel.
I’m wonderful and powerful.
In Your presence I am real.

This world is not my home

Where people build on sand.
I’m ordained and secure
In the safety of Your hand.

LONGING FOR BELONGING

July 12, 2012

I’m feeling kinda lonely,
I’m feeling pretty blue.
I’m feeling like my heart has died
And my brain has turned to glue.
I’ve started walking upside-down
Yet feeling like I’m inside out.
I know someday I’ll feel at home
But even this I sometimes doubt.

          I’m longing for belonging
          For peace at least
          I don’t want to roam.
          I just want a home,
          A place to belong
          But my journey is long
          And my journey is tough
          But this worlds not enough.
               This world is not my home.
               I’m only passing through.
               Though in this world I roam
               This world will never do.

I’m missing all my friends.
It’s like I’ve lost a limb.
My present is monotonous
My future seems so grim.
It mocks me with uncertainties.
Yet everyone tells me there is hope.
Day after day I don’t belong,
And in this world I cannot cope.

Christ, too, longed for belonging
For the likes of you and me.
When He came to give His all for us
Upon that blessed tree.
Christ knows the pain so deep inside.
He knows the strains, the hurts, the strife.
He’s felt the ache when far from God.
Yet He beat death to give us life.

          I’m not alone. I’m not unknown.
          God took my wrongs. Now I belong.
          He gave His all, so He could call
          Me as His own. Now I am home.
          I’ve found my place, inside God’s grace.
          I’ll rest at last, secure and fast
          In arms of love, in heaven above.
          Longing no more. Belonging for sure.

I SEE PAST THE LIES

Monday 13 September 2010

With centered, loving, God-bound eyes
I look on you and, no surprise
I see past all of satan’s lies
as each one now, defeated, dies.

yet, silently, my heart just cries
and seeks an answer from the skies
for why the darkness still defies
the God Who all our freedom buys

and how could He, so very wise
let satan tie us with his ties
and teach us his depraved disguise
‘til we forget we’re meant to rise.

though we have God, yet satan vies
and tries to tempt with compromise
but yet no matter how he tries
he can’t escape his sure demise.

now God has no need to surmise
to see our sins in total size
nor does He need to improvise
a way to instruct or to chastise

He takes our sins, with no goodbyes
And buries them when we’re baptized.
now all the good our lives comprise
comes from the One Who all provides.

I look on you and my heart denies
all that sin and shame implies
my view now wholly rests, relies
on He Who sovereign grace supplies.

and where His blood He once applies
there’s nothing left now to despise
nor could satan ever devise
a way that could that blood revise

or steal us from our righteous prize.
for when your heart with God allies
and when your mind lets Him advise
and when you drop your sinful guise

it’s then your eye to heaven flies
it’s then that your soul will arise
He’ll lift your face to higher highs.
no lie can silence God’s reprise.

SING IT AND MEAN IT

Thursday 5 January 2006

How many times have I sung the words,
While their meaning remained unheard?
They speak to me of God above,
About His mercy and His love.
I open up my mouth and sing,
But no praises do I bring.
I hear only note and chord,
And send no music to the Lord.
I sing, but I sing only to sing.
My reason for singing is not for the King.
I’m singing to sing, and not to praise,
And I’m missing His truths in so many ways.
I want to worship instead of sing.
I want to worship Christ the King!
Music is lovely to my earthly ear,
But praises from the heart are what He wants to hear.
O God above, please hear my plea.
I want to worship only Thee!
And now, the words hold meaning for me.
You’ve opened my eyes, and I can see!
I see Your truths, I hear them ringing.
YOU have become my reason for singing!
I want to sing out loud and clear
The message I now hold so dear.
True music and worship will only begin
When it reaches our hearts and pours out from within.
We need to mean what we sing, every single part.
Then, the words from our mouths will flow straight to God’s heart.

ALONE WITH YOU

Alone with You, my Lord.
Alone, my God, my King.
I’m struggling to worship You.
I’m trying hard to sing.

In this place of desolation
My heart is thirsty for
A place where I will worship,
A sky where I can soar.

But people close around me.
Secularity surrounds me.
These “Christians” they drown me,
Until Your love has found me.

You throw me to the sky
With updrafts of Your love.
Though I must soar alone,
I still will soar above.

So, this is my choice:
I will lift my voice.
I will rise and sing.
I will praise my King.
I will give my all,
Though others may fall.
I will rise and soar,
And fly for my Lord

Though I must soar alone,
I still will soar above.

TEARS AND NO WORDS

17 November 2005
About saying goodbye

Tears stream down my face today,
And I have no words I can say.
I wish I could say something nice,
To ease the pain and make it all right.
I wonder about what Jesus would do.
What words of encouragement would He give to you?

But I can’t say a word,
Even if I try.
All that comes out
Are the tears I cry.

My mind keeps going back to,
How lonely I’ll be without you.
We’ve been together for so long.
To be apart will feel so wrong.
And now, a smile I’m faking,
As my lonely heart is breaking.

Maybe we’ll meet again.
Maybe we’ll still be friends.
Maybe we’ll still be close, somehow.
Maybe we’ll still talk again, but for now—
Remember, money and things come and go,
But people and love last. So—

Hold your friends close to you.
Keep your memories of them, too.
And in the dark of night,
When nothing feels right,
Look to Jesus who holds your friends.
Pray for them again and again.
When you’re lonely and down,
Look to Jesus and lose the frown.

So, cry for me, hold me,
Love me, remember me.
I love you, I’ll pray for you,
I’ll miss you, I’d die for you.

HE SHINES STRONG

Monday 12 January 2009-Tuesday 12 January 2009

When the Sun is bright,

When the Sun shines strong,

When the Sun is my Light,

He shines strong.

When darkness surrounds me,

When the night seems long,

When my blindness confounds me,

He shines strong.

When my strength starts to wane,

When my right is wrong,

When I’m making no gain,

He shines strong.

When I’ve lost my heart,

When I’ve lost my song,

When I fall apart,

He shines strong.

 

When He picks me up,

When I belong,

When He fills my cup,

I shine along.